Organizational Blunder

Some days my house looks like a tornado hit it-and I simply walk over the piles of dirty clothes in our room and the 100th toy in the living area and just want to relax and not worry about everything being in its proper place right.that.minute.

Then other days, I get on my husband for not putting dishes directly in the dishwasher instead of just leaving them in the sink...

(I have a very patient husband) ;)

What's wrong with me??? I wish I was either completely Type A, where everything has an order, a place, a function, a cubby to fit into --OR--there's a mess and some day I'll clean it up. I'm totally and completely in the middle. I feel like that makes me more narcotic than if I was uptight about everything being put away! (Am I making sense here...? No... ?)

I know I am much happier when I can have a full day of cleaning and then after that it's just picking up after the kids or a load or two of laundry here and there rather than letting it all pile up for a week. But with two babies some days I DO want to just sit with them and not clean or think about the ten loads of laundry sitting in our rooms. AM I THE ONLY ONE? I'm assuming not.

Sometimes I think, maybe we have too much "stuff" and if we didn't, "stuff" wouldn't just be laying in my hallway. But then I look around and think, well what could we get rid of........................................and then that thought ends.

I know it will all get put away eventually-and then get dirty eventually. It's the circle of life people. The circle of a beautiful, messy life :)

At the end of the day, I have healthy kids who have a plethora of entertainment that doesn't involve the TV ; and clothes on their backs that they can dirty up all they want ; and a husband who makes me desserts with dishes that end up getting dirty ; and a warm place to live that is some times a mess.

That could've been THE most pointless post to date, but that's alright with me!

Blessings!

{His direction, His calling}

I don't know if it's having two babies to think about now, or maturing in my own life-but decision making these days seems to be under a microscope for me. I don't consider myself an irresponsible person, but long gone are the days where I flippantly make a decision and hope it works out. I've gotten more involved with giving God my decision making over the years and waiting to see His response of where we should be going. Let me tell you, even for a strong believer in the Lord it is still a scary process. My human mind says "TIME OUT-this can't happen" while God is clearly saying "let me worry about the logistics, you just follow my lead". Phew. Easier put into words on a blog than possibly living out in my day to day life. 

But let me tell you-the decisions He has called us to make that didn't make logical sense in the moment have been the greatest decisions and brought us to this amazing place in our lives. It's a daily commitment, that I will admit I don't always hold up my end on, to talk to God and ask for His direction in our lives. But I find a peace when I call on Him. 

I'm blessed daily. And thankful for all He does. (even when I don't want to give it up and let Him sometimes)

***Today I'm starting a devotional alongside my sister (via text because we live 200 MILES AWAY from each other) and I'm excited to see what this new aspect will bring to my daily life. Check it out here! 

Blessings!

Let's try this again...maybe!

I've tried this blogging thing how many times? Too many to count-or remember for that matter I guess.

I don't want to write to reach the masses-I kind of just want to write. And having it out there for anyone who wants to read it is an added bonus. I flipped through my blog I bit just now and I have some editing to do to bring it up to speed! It's been about a year since I've written my thoughts out on this page. It feels good to be back! A little intimidating since my last sentences have proved I'm not very consistent at keeping up with this. But I have thoughts. I have things to say. So I think this could be a good thing-again.

A week or two from now we'll see how we're doing.

As for now, I'm going to update a little of my page and then figure this blog world out a little bit more.

Blessings!

Pregnant with a 6-month Old

I'm here-laying on my couch as my little one sleeps, blogging to the "world" about my wonderful pregnancy pains. 

I know the pains mean our little Dominic is growing and my body is compensating for his ever changing self inside of me, but I'm already feeling the give and take of having two children and I find it interesting that God is bringing this to light before Dom even arrives. I have to put myself second when Roman is awake-playing, feeding, reading, changing, and cleaning-but that also means, at times putting Dominic second since he's feeding off of me! When I come to this realization I take a breath, get some water and a snack while Roman happily plays in his jumper. 

I embrace this realization early as it is good practice for when Dominic is HERE with us and the needs of two increase. Pregnancy and wrangling an infant is all I've known with my kiddos, so I won't know what two little lives take until January, but for now I'm resting while I have the chance and thanking God for my beautiful life. 

Btw-I totally don't want to sugar coat; these pains are real, they aren't going away, and I'm sure with 19 weeks to go I haven't felt the half of it. But I've had some experience and trust in my God and the doctors around me to get me through!

Seattle {Travels}

This past weekend we took Roman to meet one of his great grandmas in a town close to Seattle, WA. You know what that meant...Seattle trip! 

We hit the prominent Pikes Place Market, stopped in at some speciality stores in the city, and of course stumbled upon a Seahawks pro shop where both daddy and Roman got some new NFL duds! 

During the time in the city and driving around the out lying towns, I thoroughly enjoyed our first travels with our son. Granted he's 6 months old, had no idea where we were and won't remember this trip no matter what-BUT all I could think of was how great it was to be introducing him to new places and how wonderful it will be to take both of our boys on trips as they grow. It will be so eye opening to watch them experience new cities, cultures, and adventures. It will be a favorite to dream up where we will take them and all that we will enjoy as a family.

We have our first family vacation booked for October to go to the coast! I can't wait for Roman to experience the sand and take him for walks around the ocean. Again, he won't have a clue what's going on, but I'm so happy we're starting these family memories now-no matter how old the babies are. 

Until next time!

I'm Back!

OH.MY.GOODNESS.

My last post was on June 2-THREE MONTHS have gone by since I jumped on here and posted. I believe my last blog post was written from bed, the night before I went back to work after maternity leave. Boy has life changed since then. 

We already knew it then, but I had yet to share on the blog that we are expecting our second baby! We found out when Roman was 1 1/2 months old that we were pregnant again and we were: stunned, thrilled, stunned, over-joyed, anxious-did I mentioned stunned? The surprise came more from how quickly we conceived again, rather than the fact we were having another baby. Clearly we know how babies are made, but the first time around it took us TWO years (hence why we felt called by God to let our second come in His timing, as we did with the first) to finally have a positive pregnancy test-we KNEW it could happen any time, but didn't know it WOULD happen so soon. All of that to say-WE ARE THRILLED to have our babies so close together, I'm enjoying pregnancy to the fullest and preparations are far under way for welcoming our second child as I am now 20 weeks along. Another exciting note to this is that we found out Roman will have a little brother (!) Dominic Alan to play, wrestle and grow up with. We are due one month after Christmas so needless to say, if I thought these last 20 weeks went by fast, the last half is going to FLY. Roman will experience all of his "firsts" holidays, we are planning his 1st birthday party very early so we can have everything ready by March, plus the added activities of every-day life...20 weeks (maybe!) will go by in a blink.

Another huge change since June 2-my hubby accepted a new job in Portland, moving us from our college town to our home town and making me a stay-at-home-momma. I was back to work after having Roman for exactly one month before I gave my notice and got to be back at home with him. Such a blessing for God to have provided a job where my husband can grow and flourish and for allowing me to be home with Roman, to enjoy my pregnancy and my time with Roman before Dominic comes.

Roman is now 6 months old and I'm having the best time watching him learn new things, try new foods and begin to understand the world around him. What a beautiful gift!

My hope now that I'm home is to blog about my wonderful, crazy, beautiful life and share my stories with whoever is out there reading them. (I know I've been home for awhile and only now getting back to blogging, but really-I'm going to do it now!)

Dying Inside Tonight

Ok that title might be a tad dramatic BUT....today was my last day before starting work back up again tomorrow and leaving my little guy for the first time all day. I had my first cry tonight and my hubby hugged me tight and reassured me that it was all going to be ok. I know eventually I will see it that way-but right now I'm picturing missing all of his funny faces, his laughs, rocking him, reading with him, carrying him around while I work on the chores, snuggling and loving on him all day long. I will be so ecstatic for 4:45 to roll around every day and speed (I mean drive slowly and carefully) home to my baby boy. 

God has truly blessed us by giving us peace of mind by having our great friend be his care provider. That has lifted a huge weight off of my shoulders and I know he will be taken care of so well. I have no doubts-but I'm still going to miss him like crazy!!!!!!!

I'm also able to acknowledge that I am very blessed that I'm able to have a job to go back to and be able to help provide for my family. The most important thing is to make sure we're all taken care of and God has shown me that this is necessary even if temporary :)

I love my God, I love my family. 

Sweet dreams blogging world.